2010.02.23 14:43:35

knoxtennman

Self-Imposed Chastity → No Joy

As bad luck would have it, my wife was too busy and definitely not in the mood to have any fun last night. I reset the combination on my key safe and uploaded a pic to the keyholder website. I set it for a release time of late morning on Thursday then told it to randomize a release time near the end. I told it to give me an approximate release time instead of the hot/cold indicator and it is showing a time that is around midnight Wednesday night. I'm going to assume that it will be sometime in the wee hours of Thursday morning and I'll end up having to wait until I have the house to myself before I can get the key and unlock. That will be 5 days since my last orgasm. That's no big deal to long time chastity enthusiasts, but for a newbie, it will be a nice achievement.

I've actually gone longer than 5 days on willpower alone, but it's quite different when wearing the device. It is a CONSTANT reminder that I can't have an orgasm. I can't even tease myself. When I was doing it on willpower, I would still masturbate to the edge at least a couple of times a day. I thought that was making it harder to meet my goal, but now I'm not so sure. At least during the other times of the day, my mind could be completely off of sex. But while I've finally gotten the CB-3000 adjusted to a point that it is reasonable comfortable, I'm almost always aware of it. I'm hoping that will change over time and I'll become so used to it that I don't notice it because I just don't see how I can extend voluntary chastity more than a few days otherwise.

chastity | keyholder.r307.com | goals

2010.02.19 18:54:31

knoxtennman

Self-Imposed Chastity → Virtual Keyholder

I decided to try the keyholder website and make that my next goal. However, I'm just doing an approximately 1 day lockup right now. I uploaded the picture with the combination to my key safe last night. The website has a fun feature that let's you pick an amount of time to be locked up then optionally randomize the exact moment the picture is available for downloading. I set the amount of time for two days then set the randomizer to pick a point of time somewhere in the middle of that. That means that at some point tonight, I will be able to download the image and get my key back.

The weird thing is that I'm SO turned on right now! It's taking all my willpower to keep from ripping open an emergency key. Before I had a device, the longest I was able to deny myself through willpower alone was 8 days. The first few days were no big deal. In the two weeks or so that I've had a CB, it's a temptation from day 1 every time I lock myself up. Now that I've added in the fact that I'd have to break open an emergency key to get out, the intensity has gone through the roof! I'm having a hard time getting in work done because I keep logging onto the keyholder website hoping the file is ready.

Now I know that a one day lockup is no big deal. However, I am technically still working through some adjustments and trying to find the right combination of hinge padding and spots that need lubrication that I don't want to commit to a longer lockup yet. I'll get there. I just don't want to get into the habit of getting into the emergency key even if I don't cheat and lock myself right back up. I'm trying to maintain a discipline of considering the emergency key something that should only be used for a real emergency (or if my wife wants to have sex).

Looking forward, I think at some point, I may have to get the CB-6000. The extra care in dealing with padding the hinge in the rings is really annoying and I'd like to be able to experiment with smaller gaps between the cage and the rings without having the guide pins poking me. My biggest worry about the 6000, though, is the seemingly high frequency of seam splits coupled with the fact that the seams run top and bottom instead of each side. If the split is on the bottom and pinches your scrotum, I imagine it would be a lot harder and more painful to get the cage off.

Actually cage splits worry me with the 3000 as well. I'd like to figure out some way to reinforce the seams in advance. If anyone has any ideas, please let me know. If there is a solution that will work for both the 3000 and the 6000 I may go ahead and order it.

keyholder.r307.com | emergency key | cage split prevention

2010.02.18 22:27:14

knoxtennman

Self-Imposed Chastity → Getting Lucky!

The big news today is that my wife came home from school for lunch and had some time before she had to go back. She indicated that after she ate and unwound from the stress of taking a test this morning that she'd be up for some fun. I unlocked myself and got cleaned up so I'd be ready when she was. (She tolerates my CB but prefers not to have to deal with it.) We had a great time. I only wish she hadn't had to go back to school so we could have taken more time with it.

I waited until she left for school before locking back up. It turned out to be very good timing for me because just this morning I had finally found the toe bandages I'd read about and now I had an opportunity to try one out. I'm hoping it will work out better than the band-aides I've been putting over the hinge until now. So far, so good.

I don't know if anyone is actually reading this blog, but if so, I mentioned in my previous post that my goal was to stay locked up this time (with exceptions for cleaning) until my wife was ready for sex. I had originally expected that to be Friday at the earliest. While I'm very pleased to have had the opportunity to have sex, it has left me temporarily goal-less now that I've locked myself back up. Although there are certainly exceptions, my wife's sexual needs combined with her stressful school workload usually equate to once or twice a month. That means that it is quite possible it will be around another 2 weeks before we have sex again and I'm not ready to commit to that length of a lockup just yet. Eventually I will be ready for that, but I'm trying to build a string of successes as positive reinforcement and I don't want to set an unreasonable goal and not make it.

One possible goal is to try out keyholder.r307.com for just a couple of days and see how it goes. It looks like a pretty cool website. I might even contact the authors and suggest an additional feature or two once I've played around with it some.

One of the things I find really interesting is how hard it is to keep the device on right now. There's this part of me that reasoning that since I've had an orgasm today, why not just have one or two more before locking up again? That date of last orgasm doesn't change, right? Go for it! It seems that willpower is just as important immediately after release as it is when several days go by. The real "fun" will start when I remove willpower from the equation!

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