2010.03.09 17:05:59

knoxtennman

Self-Imposed Chastity → Lockup of indeterminate length

I took the weekend off from chastity play since we had guests and I didn't want to have to worry about accidental discovery. I locked back up yesterday around noon with a short term, if somewhat undefined goal. You see, this week is spring break for my wife. As much as I would love to be in the sack with her every day this week, her monthly cycle started last Saturday. I am hoping that she will be done and ready to play as early as tomorrow.

Of course, there are some complicating factors. While my wife has never had what I'd call a high sex drive, it is particularly low in the days immediately following her period. Also, she has a mid-term on Monday of next week so she can't really just lounge around and relax all week long. Although I'm obviously hoping she'll realize we should not let this week go by without at least one round of mattress dancing, it would not be entirely out of character for her to announce that it's just not going to work. Or, at the very least, she will put it off until the last minute and then suddenly have a headache. I'm not just being pessimistic here. Plenty of precedence has been been established over our 20+ years of marriage for me to see this as a very possible outcome.

So anyway, my goal is to stay locked up until my wife is ready to have sex or Thursday afternoon at the earliest. I was going to wait until Friday afternoon but going that long without relief might negatively impact my performance should my wife decide she's in the mood.

avoiding detection | goals | sex

2010.03.01 16:18:55

knoxtennman

Self-Imposed Chastity → What to do?

Between Thursday night and Sunday morning, I'd say I was locked up about 50% of the time. Even when I was wearing it, I was only doing so to not lose any progress my body was making on getting used to having it on. My wife has a head cold so I pretty much "entertained myself" on Friday and Saturday. By late Saturday morning, my mind began to consider what my next chastity goal would be. I locked back up on Saturday afternoon although I did take it back off Sunday afternoon for a few hours to make a few things easier on me. It had only been a little of 24 hours so I wasn't worried about lacking the will power to keep from cheating.

At this point, I'm not entirely sure what my goal is. If I stay locked up until Thursday again, that would be 1 day longer than the last time. That seems like a reasonable goal from both an orgasm denial point of view and the continuous wearing of the CB-3000 point of view. However, Thursday morning is one of the two best opportunities I have to have sex with my wife (due to her schedule) and if I've gone 5 days without release, I'm not going to last all that long should I get the opportunity. That's not going to make her very happy and could cause a problem with her tolerance of my self-imposed chastity play. If I'd ever had even a little bit of success at milking my prostate, I'd give that a try as that might be enough for me to avoid popping off too soon. The other option would be to unlock myself for a ruined orgasm on Tuesday but I can count the number of times I've really made my self stop and completely ruin it on one hand and have several fingers left over. I always start off fully intending to ruin it, but when the moment arrives, I don't have the will power to let it slip away. I'll figure something out, I guess.

On a positive note, I've determined that I can ride the stationary bikes at my gym with no problem while wearing the CB-3000. The next step will be to see if I can comfortable ride my road bike. I'll probably have to wait a week or so for the weather to warm up a bit before I try that. The two things that worry me about the road bike is the much narrower shape of the saddle and the fact that being bent over on a rode bike for an hour or two frequently causes me to "turtle up" pretty significantly. I'm worried that I'll slip out of the device and I have no idea what kind of discomfort/pain/damage that might cause.

chastity | goals | sex | exercise

2010.02.22 15:44:49

knoxtennman

Self-Imposed Chastity → Free Weekend

I gave myself the weekend off but locked back up this morning. I'm trying out the #4 ring since it seems that I may have already stretched out a little. I'm hoping I don't have any problems with it because it seems that the smaller the ring, the easier it is to walk and sit normally. I'm going to keep a close eye on things today and see how it goes.

There's also a chance I might get lucky with the wife tonight. She's spent most of the weekend studying for a big test she has this afternoon. She' got a test in another class this coming Thursday, but I'm hoping she'll want to have a little fun time this evening. However, if she doesn't want to, the cage won't come off (assuming the new ring size is okay). I will reset my key safe and set the unlock time to Thursday morning.

adjustments | sex

2010.02.18 22:27:14

knoxtennman

Self-Imposed Chastity → Getting Lucky!

The big news today is that my wife came home from school for lunch and had some time before she had to go back. She indicated that after she ate and unwound from the stress of taking a test this morning that she'd be up for some fun. I unlocked myself and got cleaned up so I'd be ready when she was. (She tolerates my CB but prefers not to have to deal with it.) We had a great time. I only wish she hadn't had to go back to school so we could have taken more time with it.

I waited until she left for school before locking back up. It turned out to be very good timing for me because just this morning I had finally found the toe bandages I'd read about and now I had an opportunity to try one out. I'm hoping it will work out better than the band-aides I've been putting over the hinge until now. So far, so good.

I don't know if anyone is actually reading this blog, but if so, I mentioned in my previous post that my goal was to stay locked up this time (with exceptions for cleaning) until my wife was ready for sex. I had originally expected that to be Friday at the earliest. While I'm very pleased to have had the opportunity to have sex, it has left me temporarily goal-less now that I've locked myself back up. Although there are certainly exceptions, my wife's sexual needs combined with her stressful school workload usually equate to once or twice a month. That means that it is quite possible it will be around another 2 weeks before we have sex again and I'm not ready to commit to that length of a lockup just yet. Eventually I will be ready for that, but I'm trying to build a string of successes as positive reinforcement and I don't want to set an unreasonable goal and not make it.

One possible goal is to try out keyholder.r307.com for just a couple of days and see how it goes. It looks like a pretty cool website. I might even contact the authors and suggest an additional feature or two once I've played around with it some.

One of the things I find really interesting is how hard it is to keep the device on right now. There's this part of me that reasoning that since I've had an orgasm today, why not just have one or two more before locking up again? That date of last orgasm doesn't change, right? Go for it! It seems that willpower is just as important immediately after release as it is when several days go by. The real "fun" will start when I remove willpower from the equation!

sex | goals | keyholder.r307.com