"oh sure honey, it may be uncomfortable... but only for a while."

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2010.01.03 18:50:30

jakbehumble

jakbehumble → "oh sure honey, it may be uncomfortable... but only for a while."

i am the sub/slave/pet of Ms A and have been locked in a CB3k since 12-12-09. Ms A is a most generous Woman with allowing me, though it is more of an instruction, to share my submission to Her, with others. She feels it will further my journey and refine my submission to Her in all capacities. W/we are a straight couple and while Ms A has, in years past, attended social functions with other 'lifestyle' members, i have yet to reveal in the presence of others, my submissive character. i thank Mistress for respecting my limits in that regard and i am aware that i will be eventually serving Her properly and attentively at a 'lifestyle' social function in the future when my training, and especially my behavior has reached a level of acceptance by Her.

Thus far, my training has incorporated working my way into the wearing of Her black rhinestone studded collar. It has not been an easy task for me to achieve nor at times enjoyable, however it was a goal i desired.

Outside of O/our home W/we like others, do not project a Domme/submissive relationship as it would certainly tarnish O/our respective careers, etc. However behind closed doors, my collar goes on and my attire 'must' be in compliance with Her set rules.

i will first say that Mistress does NOT want a sissy-slave, though at first glimpse, one would think so. She likes a man to be a man; however in order to keep my mind, thoughts, actions, within that of being a true submissive, my attire ranges from and includes, leggings, tights, fishnet stockings, body stockings, along with assorted briefs, or accents (most of which are crotchless) allowing Mistress to view or see "Her" property (my cock and balls) displayed properly in chastity.

When doing chores or cleaning O/our home, i am to wear the apron of Her choosing, i.e. lace, satin, or another sheer material. Or at times She instructs me to be attired in a 'very pretty lace petticoat'. However that is usually only when i've demonstrated some ill-behaved attitude.

As She has stated very clearly, "this is meant only as a training method to ensure my station of submissiveness is intact."

Without these rules, Mistress knows that Her training will not be as effective or complete. Especially as She intends to at some point in time, entertain 'other' Mistresses for tea and/or dinner parties. Naturally, i will be serving "ALL" as She has determined my doing so, will be the ultimate in my achieving a 'true submissive" state of being. Again though, Mistress A does not want a sissy, nor intends to subject me to any bi-sexual activity.

And as with most individuals within this 'lifestyle' any failure of mine to meet my Mistress's set goals for my training and growth to become the proper sub, correction will be and has been a significant part of my training. Not to mention the fact that She finds it amusing, exciting, and most enjoyable to tease, deny, incorporate the use of Her crop, flogger, and at times - HER black leather 3" wide belt. Though, Mistress is not sadistic by nature, and i am not a pain pup, i have at times disobeyed or shown my 'alpha' character on more than one occasion and accordingly, received the proper discipline.

Naturally, there is 'play time' but i have been instructed to refrain from sharing those details at this time as Mistress A does not wish for me to expound upon 'those pleasures' at this time. She does wish for me to confirm with anyone who may read this blog, my last 'milking' was on December 10th, 2009, and while She will not be unlocking me today, She has just informed me, i am now going to be milked by Her, for Her, and will as i have been trained, clean my silver bowl afterward.

Lastly, by my admittance, and Her approving of my blog entry as i have been writing this; i enjoy having Mistress A milk me - completely and thoroughly. And yes, to "OTHER" Mistresses, Mistress A says, "the 'feel-doe' does accomplish this quite well even with keeping One's sub-slave and/or pet in their CB."

"Oh sure honey... it may be uncomfortable... but only for a while!" She snickers.

Sir2xdom

2010.01.07 20:33:54

jak,
Very much enjoyed reading your blog. Your sense of humor and irony remind me a lot of my "boy"---xdom2sub.
I also impose attire rules. They're quite different than yours but the concept of keeping a boy constantly aware of his status and role is the same. At home attire is very limited. Just one brief item--boxers, briefs, waist wrap, short robe or nightshirt, oversize t-shirt--is allowed, so either his upper or lower body is covered, but not both. There is also his "hardware"---collar, neosteel, ankle band and now a new attachment. No shoes or socks are allowed, only various types of flip-flops worn on otherwise bare feet which also applies when the boy is out. (We live in Los Angeles.) Other than footwear, his attire when out is as ordered.

I liked two of your Mistress's ideas and have adopted them, much to the boy's chagrin. The attached bell does keep me aware of his whereabouts and comings and goings. Before I had relied on the slap, slap of his flip-flops, or when shackled while on punishment the slap, clink, slap clink. Of course the bell can be heard at greater distance than even the shackles.

The other idea is the daily journal of events, thoughts feelings. Due to the boy's 23+ years as a Dom/Control Top, his adjustment has been a difficult struggle at times. He chats openly with friends here, but since I don't pry into his chats here, I may miss a developing problem around an issue he may find difficult to speak with me about. I'd considered the journal idea last year, but it somehow got lost in the daily events and drama. Your blog sparked new interest.

So, extend my thanks, admiration and best wishes to your Mistress. My thanks to you also, for your humorous and nicely written blog. It's hoped that you'll be adding to it. By the way, since the boy was not overjoyed with his additional attachment and writing assignment, I did not mention your blog as the source of my inspiration. I realize there's concern by the lockees, subs, boys, slaves here that their superiors might find different tactics and methods in the chat, forums and blogs. I have no idea if you've ever had contact, I just prefer not to meddle with what I imagine is "sub solidarity." Take care, be good, behave!

Sir2xdom

jakbehumble

2010.01.08 13:33:38

To Sir2xdom,
I am Mistress A - my pet 'jakbehumble' and I thank You for the commentary. I'm certain You have already found having Your xdom2sub attired with a few bells is most pleasing to Your ears. I know with jak's bells, it is comforting to me especially knowing his slightest movement has them 'jingling'. Personally I found using a few different types of sleighbells (some weigh more than others) offer different tones and is almost musical.
With the addition of with one silver bell on his collar has made an even more pleasant sound.

Again, thank You for Your comment.

Mistress A - owner of jakbehumble

While my pet has much to learn, he has reached the level where he knows what My requirements for him are.

Sir2xdom

2010.01.08 16:14:25

Mistress A:
It was very nice to hear from you. I didn't know if you were also a member here. I've attached small bells to the boy's collar and/or ankle band and it's great to be aware of where he is and to know if he's approaching. He's not crazy about the idea--says he "feels like a belled leper"--but I'm enjoying the advantage as well as his chagrin--he "does" chagrin very well.

Also is jsut the past few days, the journal keeping has already produced some results. He as a set bedtime of 9PM which is strictly enforced. Of course he doesn't fall asleep then and I've told him to use that as undistracted time for reflection and thought, but until now most of the time has probably been spent sulking about having a set bedtime which he believes is too early. So now he's been instructed to use the time to think about the day and organize his thoughts and feeling to enter in the journal first thing in the morning. He's allowed out of bed and has been writing while having morning coffee.

I read the entry during the course of the day and at bedtime after he's "tucked in," we're able to discuss anything that could be the source of a problem, etc. This also helps to prime the pump for that evening's reflection and has undoubtedly cut down on the time wasted sulking. It also occupies that early morning time, since he's not exactly overburdened with chores. So good things resulted from your ideas and jak's blog.

Should I have any further inspirations, ideas, I will share them and hope you'll do the same.
Sir2xdom

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